The Akashic Records Reading That Changed How I Saw My Father

One of the first Akashic Records readings I ever gave was for a married woman who wanted to understand her relationships with her lovers.

Lovers. Plural.

She had a husband, kids, and two other men. And I had feelings about that.

My father cheated on my mother. Often. And as a child, I was right in the middle of it.

My mom would take me to bars, or we'd drive around looking for him while he was out on dates.

Sometimes I was the one expected to physically bring him home.

Picture a little girl walking into a bar to retrieve her father.

I watched what his choices did to my mother. I knew what it felt like to be a child caught in something she had absolutely no business being responsible for. And I carried a tremendous amount of anger and resentment toward my father well into adulthood.

So when this woman sat down to discuss her husband and her two other relationships, let's just say Human Shannon had some opinions.

Human Shannon Rides in the Backseat

Channeling is a strange thing to explain, especially because I experience it in different ways.

Sometimes I'm receiving images, feelings, or information that I just know without being able to explain how I know it. Other times, I step aside and allow the client's Guides to speak directly.

The closest analogy I've found is that there are two versions of me during those moments.

There's the part of me in the front seat, conducting the reading and communicating what comes through.

And then there's Human Shannon, hanging out in the backseat, looking out the window at whatever happens to drift past.

She doesn't always know what's being said up front.

During this particular reading, what drifted past my window was my childhood.

My mother. The bars. The little girl sent to retrieve her father. All those years of anger I'd carried without really questioning what else there might be to understand.

Meanwhile, I was still conducting a reading for a woman who had come to me with questions about her own life.

The Guidance I Wasn't Expecting

I don't remember the exact words that came through. This was one of my earliest readings, and I'm not going to pretend I have a transcript.

But I remember the perspective.

The client's relationships weren't being examined through the usual lens of right and wrong. The guidance explored what she was experiencing through those relationships, what she was learning, and what she was gaining from them.

That was a perspective I hadn't considered.

My experience with infidelity was entirely from the other side. I knew the betrayal, the hurt, the confusion, and the consequences that extended far beyond the two adults involved.

And none of that suddenly became okay.

But as I continued the reading, something unexpected happened.

I began to see my father differently.

Not just as the man who cheated on my mother. Not just as the father who put me in situations no child should have been in. But as another human being, with his own experiences, desires, struggles, and motivations that I knew very little about.

For so long, I'd understood him almost entirely through the pain his choices had caused.

And suddenly, that wasn't the only thing I could see.

I wasn't given an explanation for his behavior. I didn't discover some secret reason that made everything acceptable. I wasn't even trying to forgive him.

But the resentment I'd carried for years began to release.

Right there, in the middle of someone else's Akashic Records reading.

I hadn't come looking for healing. I was supposed to be the one helping someone else.

Funny how that works.

Understanding Someone Doesn't Mean Excusing Them

I want to be clear about something because I think this is where spiritual conversations can get a little sideways.

What happened during that reading didn't change my childhood.

My father made choices that hurt people. My mother suffered. I was put in situations that were completely inappropriate for a child, and I had every reason to feel the way I did.

Understanding more about someone doesn't erase the consequences of their actions.

And I don't believe we need to find a spiritual explanation for everything painful that happens to us. We certainly don't need to call it a gift.

What changed for me was that I no longer needed my father to exist solely as the person who had hurt us.

I could recognize what happened, acknowledge the impact it had on me, and still see that there was more to him than the part of his life I had witnessed.

That distinction gave me something I hadn't expected.

Relief.

I didn't have to rewrite my memories or convince myself that everything happened for some wonderful cosmic reason. I could let go of the resentment without dismissing the little girl who had carried it.

And I could finally look at my father without all those years of anger standing between us.

When the Practitioner Becomes Part of the Experience

I've thought about that reading many times over the years, especially because it taught me something important about how I approach this work.

Clients don't come to me for my personal opinions about how they should live.

And believe me, I have opinions.

Human Shannon has a lifetime of experiences, beliefs, biases, and occasionally some very strong reactions. She's not going anywhere, nor would I want her to.

But when I'm working in the Akashic Records, I have to recognize the difference between what belongs to me and what I'm receiving for someone else.

That doesn't mean abandoning discernment. I question things. I pay attention to what feels clear and what doesn't. And I'm very aware that my own interpretations can influence how I understand information.

In this reading, I could have allowed my history to shape what I told the client. I could have projected my feelings about infidelity onto her situation and convinced myself I was offering spiritual guidance.

Instead, I stayed with what was coming through, even though it challenged something deeply personal.

And in doing so, I experienced a shift I hadn't known was possible.

This is one of the reasons I find the Akashic Records so fascinating after all these years. A reading may begin with questions about a relationship, a career, or a decision someone is struggling with. But sometimes the experience opens into something neither of us anticipated.

I can't promise that will happen. I wouldn't want to.

What I can tell you is that this particular reading changed the way I understood my father, and that change stayed with me.

I often talk about seeing people at the soul level during my sessions. For me, that means looking beyond the roles they play, the choices they've made, and the stories we've attached to them.

For years, I thought about that primarily in relation to my clients.

Apparently, it applies to fathers, too.

Curious about what an Akashic Records reading might open up for you?

Whether you're exploring relationships, questioning old patterns, or simply wanting to understand yourself more deeply, we can begin with whatever is on your mind.

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With grace and gratitude,

ShannonYour Spiritual BFF